The office was compact and spare, with white walls, green carpet and
a faint, yellowish light which was more apt to bedside reading than
clerical work. Renton had a modest desk with a green deco-style
lamp, some papers and an ancient looking rotary telephone. A
secretary was seated at a smaller desk at the far side of the door,
typing and smoking. She had sleek black hair, pale, almost
translucent skin, green eyes and full lips whose redness startled the
nameless man. She had the strange quality of eroticism and inertia
which he found characteristic of the technocrats. He glanced at her
as Renton ushered him into the office, but her attention remained
fixed and distant, exhaling a plume of smoke that shrouded her face
in the dim light.
Renton, in contrast, exuded concern and conviviality. He saw the
nameless man to his seat and sat down opposite, studying him with a
physician's earnest and helpful gaze. The nameless man's first
impulse was to lean over the desk and attempt to throttle him, but
Renton's air of suave civility was disarming. They sat regarding one
another for a moment, the only sound in the office the steady clack
of the typewriter and a distant hum of machinery. Finally, Renton
spoke in a gentle, mellifluous accent:
'Well, you don't seem too bad, all things considered. It's a
difficult process, but you seem to be bearing up to it. Do you
remember anything?'
'Nothing.'
'Nothing at all? Even your name?'
'Nothing.'
Renton looked down at the nameless man's breast pocket.
'Did you check your passport?'
The nameless man reached into his pocket and found, to his
astonishment, a passport. He opened the document and studied it.
The picture was of the stranger whom he'd discovered in the terminal
to be himself: the same timid features, pale blue eyes and sandy
hair. Though much of the passport was written in a language
unfamiliar to him, there was a name beneath the photograph: MARK
WILLIAM SMITH.
'So my name is Mark Smith?'
'Yes', Renton beamed.
'It sounds made up.'
'Well, aren't all names?'
Mark turned to glance briefly at the secretary, who continued typing
impassively, then back to Renton.
'What's she writing?'
'Oh, I wouldn't worry about that, it has nothing to do with our
situation. Her presence here is largely theatrical. She is here
because you expect her to be here. The environment, you see, is
responsive to archetypal patterns of memory, and she corresponds to a
wider complex of expectations. But she is working, of course, we're
not wasteful. As to what she is working on, well, suppose that
somebody, somewhere, is subject to an idea or an impression which
seems to emerge out of the thin air – a strange, fugitive notion
which doesn't derive from their own experiences or thought processes.
Where do these notions come from? Well, it might be that such
things are simply a mystery, or it might be that whenever a person
experiences such an idea or impression, in some other place a
secretary like Marlene there is dutifully typing up the crux of the
matter, and her typewriter is in a sense a transmitting device.'
Mark turned back to regard Marlene again. She didn't show the
slightest awareness that they were discussing her, and continued to
work as though she were alone in the room. She typed with an
extraordinary rapidity and lack of apparent mental exertion, as
though a text were being dictated to her. She exhaled her cigarette,
and her features were lost again in the slowly curling plume of
smoke. Mark swung back to face Renton.
'What is this place? You have to tell me what's going on here.'
'Oh, of course, that's what I'm here for. But I can assure you that
you just won't believe me at first. That's why I want you to promise
that you won't actively resist what I'm about to tell you – you
will, at least for awhile, indulge me, and entertain what I'm telling
you. The process is difficult, but it will run more smoothly if you
do just that much.'
'You want me to believe whatever you tell me?'
'No, I didn't say that. I'm not saying that you must accept what
I'm telling you – only that you should entertain it. How
else does one come to believe things, anyway? It seems to me that,
when approached without preconceptions, all things must be equally
fantastical and difficult to credit. The everyday is really only
those fantastical things which impinge upon our attention with the
more boorish persistence. So we acquire our beliefs by entertaining
more or less queer notions, until such a time as their reality
becomes undeniable. This is what will happen to you in Intermundia
Airport.'
'Well, go ahead then.'
Renton opened a drawer in his desk and produced a bottle of whiskey
and two glasses. He poured two measures and gently pushed a glass in
Mark's direction.
'Well, there's good news and bad news, Mark. Let's start with the
bad news. You are recently deceased.'
'I'm what?'
Renton's face and the timbre of his voice sank in an actorly
modulation to condolence.
'You recently died. I'm very sorry.'
His face brightened almost instantaneously, and he stretched out his
arms in an expansive gesture:
'But take cheer, Mark, the good news should be rather obvious by
now: the rumours of death's finality have clearly been grossly
exaggerated!'
Mark gaped at the strange bureaucrat, then took the glass and gulped
back its contents. The whiskey burned his throat and he felt an
intense wave of nausea grip his body. When this passed, he felt an
involuntary, light-headed calmness.
'So my is name is Mark Smith and I'm dead?'
'Well, more or less, but not quite. Do you have any memory of the
concept of reincarnation or transmigration?'
'The words are familiar but I don't know what they mean.'
'Well, they mean basically that a person leads many different lives.
When they die, it's really not the end but only a new beginning.
Night falls, and they must go to sleep, but the sun will rise again
in the morning, and they also to a new life, a new round of pleasures
and pains and all the strange business and exigencies of life, with
only a fleeting awareness here and there that they have done it all
before, many, many times. So you are Mark Smith, but you are also
that unitary principle – let's call it a soul for convenience –
which has persisted through all these myriad prior incarnations. But
Mark Smith is dead, and will linger on only for a short while in this
intermediate condition, until such time as you let him go, and go
back to do it all again in a new identity.'
'Do you really expect me to believe any of this?'
'Well, I told you already you wouldn't at first. But, Mark, you
have to be honest with yourself – you've surely had some suspicion
or intimation about what was going on here all along. What other
explanation, really, is tenable, for all the things you have seen
today?'
'Okay, lets say I go along with you, for argument's sake. Where is
this place?'
Renton sighed, and poured another glass of whiskey for Mark.
'Well, that's rather a difficult question. This is no place,
really. We are currently occupying – if you'll permit the
rather loose use of the term – a realm outside of space and time.
What you might have called a void or a vacuum, if those words ring
any bells.'
'So there is no time or space here?'
'Right!'
'And yet we're sitting on chairs, talking. And there is a clock on
the wall.'
'Well, yes, it is a little difficult to wrap one's head around at
first. Logic, you see, is a formalized property of time and space.
Once one steps outside those parameters, such niceties as the law of
non-contradiction are no longer applicable. Let me try to sketch out
the territory to make things a little clearer for you. Time and
space is the natural element of the human soul. When one incarnation
ends and the physical body dies, the soul is extracted from its
natural medium, rather like a fish taken out of water. And this
process is very traumatic, very perilous, to the soul. There is a
danger that the soul will lose its integrity and continuity – that
its sense of self-identity will be obliterated in the immensity of
the void. The fish, after all, dies in the upper world, just as the
human drowns in the depths of the ocean. Luckily, however, the soul
has evolved a fail-safe mechanism to maintain its integrity. That
mechanism resides in the persistence of habit and memory. The soul
continues to do in the void precisely what it did in the physical
world, albeit with only its memories to replace the world itself.'
'Meaning what, exactly?'
'Are you aware of the concept of the phantom limb?'
Mark shook his head.
'It is a curious medical phenomenon. Say that a person loses a limb
– an arm or a leg – in some catastrophe. After the amputation,
perhaps continuing for a period of years, the person is haunted by
the sensory conviction that the absent limb is still extant. Now
logically, of course, they know that this is not the case, but
experientially, the sensation is exactly as though an arm or leg were
present. So what is happening? Well, we must assume that the brain,
following its habitual interactions with the nervous system, is
projecting the absent member's continuity over the void which has
replaced it. Though indistinguishable from the sensation of
real flesh and blood, it is but a memory of neurons and
nerve-endings, a maudlin artifice of mechanistic biology.'
'Well, that's very interesting, but what's the relevance to me?'
'Well, the relevance, Mark, is that your physical body is dead and
faraway from here. The body that you currently inhabit is an eidolon
composed entirely of memory. There is no flesh, no
corpuscles, not a single material atom in your entire frame – only
a memory of the last body your soul inhabited, maintained by habit
and projected onto the emptiness of the void.'
Mark took the glass and swallowed the second measure of whiskey.
After another wave of nausea and elation, he patted his knees lightly
and pressed his palms together.
'Well, it all feels very – solid and tangible to me.'
'Yes, it is absolutely the same – on an experiential level – as
having a physical body. But it is made of your thoughts, simply
clumped together into a localized and continuous form by force of
habit. The entire reality of Intermundia – your own body, and
everything which you can see and touch around you – is of a mental
rather than physical constitution. Like a dream, in a sense. It is
a rather disorientating thing to get your head around at first, but
really I wouldn't dwell on it too much – it's business as usual, to
all intents and purposes.'
Mark had a strong sense that he should have been arguing with
Renton, expressing his disbelief vociferously, and demanding that the
bureaucrat spare him further nonsense, and come to the truth of the
matter. However, he was exhausted and becoming more than a little
drunk, and he had to concede that he'd been troubled throughout the
day by an intimation that Intermundia was some kind of non-ordinary
reality, or, more precisely, a hyperreality which carried with it
disquieting associations with universality and death. Though he was
not quite persuaded by Renton, he found himself hypnotized by the
bureaucrat's peculiar mixture of dry civility and erudite madness.
He found, in short, that he was playing along.
'So all this place is made up of my memories?'
'No, not your memories. Your own body, that is a product is
of your individual memory. The environment, on the other hand, is a
product of collective memory. It is generated by all the
souls that pass through here. Let's say that the soul in this place
is in transition between two distinct states of being. Now the soul
simply can't process that experience in its raw state. The whole
thing is just too unfamiliar, too alien and jarring. So the soul
does what it habitually does when faced with the unknown and
unknowable – it translates them into something familiar and
comprehensible. Now the soul, in each particular epoch, has an
iconic or archetypal image which encapsulates the idea of transition
from one state to another. In the epoch prior to yours, it was a
boatman ferrying the traveller across a gloomy subterranean river.
For people who lived and died in your era, the over-lit and
mechanized airport is the perfect communal image to encapsulate the
idea of transition. So this world in which we find ourselves is
partially true and partially imaginary. It is a concretized communal
memory and a metaphor. How does it feel to ramble around in a
metaphor?'
Mark pored himself a third drink.
'The trains are better in fables.'
Renton issued a loud boom of laughter.
'Yes, well, in some respects it really is remarkable how detailed
and consistent this world is, considering that it is at bottom a
shared hallucination. But it has its...little quirks and foibles, as
you have no doubt noticed.'
'What exactly am I supposed to do here, anyway?'
'That's more of the good news. You don't really have to do
anything. Just rest up. Recuperate. Take stock. Get ready for
another go at it. Your memories will come back to you very shortly.
Generally, they come all in one instant. Well, for some people, the
process is slower and more piecemeal. But generally speaking, it's
all in a flash. And you have to prepare yourself for that. It is a
very emotionally overwhelming experience. You'll need a little time,
after that, a little rest. And then, well, you're ready to book
yourself a flight. Ready to be born again. We've booked you into
the Intermundia Overnight for your Interim. It's not ideal.....but
perfectly adequate.'
'But, who are you, exactly?'
'Well, I'm Renton, your case officer.'
'I mean, what are you? Who do you represent?'
'Lets just say that we are dutiful functionaries – we are here to
insure that the process runs along smoothly. We are here to help.'
'And that's all you are prepared to say about it?'
'Yes.'
'Well, are you a person?'
Renton's face became momentarily blank and expressionless.
'No.'
Mark's head began to swim, and it was though as the world were a
signal subject to electromagnetic static, with Renton's immobile face
a still centre around which everything else buzzed and shimmered out
of focus. The bureaucrat's features brightened again.
'I am personable though!'
He rose from his seat.
'Well, I think that's more than enough for our first session
together. Who knows, perhaps it will be our last? The guards will
escort you back to the terminal you arrived at, and you can get
yourself settled into the Overnight. Show the fish a wide berth!
Take everything nice and easy, and I promise you will be on your way
back to the world of the living in no time!'
Renton shook Mark's hand, and began to guide him gently towards the
door, but Mark paused and eyed him suspiciously.
'You said when I came in that we'd met many times before.'
'Yes, I'm your case officer, Mark.'
'But you also said that there was no time here. So how could we
have met many times before?'
Renton smiled indulgently.
'You really shouldn't concern yourself overmuch with the physics –
or rather mentalics – of Intermundia. However, you are correct in
a sense. From your perspective, we have met many times
before. From mine, it would be more accurate to say that we are
meeting many times. Elsewhere in Intermundia, I am currently
meeting all of your past selves, and all of those to come. So you
see that we really are very old friends, Mark.'