An hour later, with ten more miles and the visit to the World's Biggest Drugstore safely behind us, we were back at home, and I had returned to that reassuring but profoundly unsatisfactory state known as "being in one's right mind."
Sunday, February 26, 2017
The Weird, Haunting Art of Graszka Paulska.
Graszka Paulska is a Polish artist based in Warsaw. Her work is very striking and brilliantly executed:
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Thursday, February 9, 2017
Intermundia Airport (Chapter 1).
By a
route obscure and lonely,
Haunted by ill angels
only,
Where an Eidolon, named
NIGHT,
On a black throne
reigns upright,
I have reached these
lands but newly
From an ultimate Dim
Thule-
From a wild weird clime
that lieth, sublime,
Out of SPACE –
Out of TIME.
Edgar
Allen Poe, Dream-Land.
Chapter
1.
He woke
up and found himself huddled on a bench in a busy airport terminal.
If he hadn't been so drowsy he would probably have been alarmed, for
he had no memories of anything prior to the intense disorientation of
his dreams. He couldn't remember his name, or anything that had ever
happened to him, before waking up in that airport terminal.
Holding
his nerves at bay, he attempted to get his bearings. He sat up on
the bench, and looked around. The terminal was a vast, ovoid-shaped
structure, with its latticed ceiling curving high above the activity
on the floor. Every surface was white, gleaming and reflective, and
through the curving lattice work of the ceiling, and glass walls
broken into cubes by white frames, he saw a pure, pulsating blue sky.
In
contrast to the sharp clarity of the terminal's appearance, its sound
was distant and diffuse, like the low, steady hum of a hidden
machinery. Feet clacked on the tiled floor, the walkers becoming
upturned shadows that arced across its polished sheen. Their voices
coalesced into a happy, bee-like static that ebbed and swelled in
waves across the terminal. Behind this sound, a woman's voice rose
intermittently to make announcements on a tinny intercom. Her
language and accent were so unfamiliar to him, and the effect of her
voice so mysterious, that he could only picture her hidden behind a
musty black veil, fingering the beads of some forgotten heresy as she
made her muffled announcements.
He
marvelled at the hive-like bustle of the terminal, its suggestion of
a factory that produced steady, minute permutations in the global
pattern of human dispersal, and in the private, intangible allotment
of human destinies. People moved this way and that, across the busy
floor, up escalators and away out of view on mobile walkways. They
were all charged with the mingled anxiety and giddy excitement of
imminent departure. Here and there, he saw other individuals who
appeared, like himself, blear-eyed and disorientated, as though they
had just awoken in an unfamiliar skin. He was struck abruptly by an
oddity in the whole scene: nobody was carrying luggage of any kind.
Taking
all this in, it occurred to him that he had a perfectly adequate
memory of the most generalized things. He know what airports were.
He knew what airplanes, taxies and buses were. In the broadest
strokes, he know what the world was, and how one functioned in it.
What he lacked completely was a memory of particular things. This
extended beyond his own identity. He tried to remember what year it
was, and found he was uncertain which decade. When he tried to
remember who was the president of America, no particular president
emerged, only a kind of composite image: an energetic, middle-aged
man in a suit with a gleaming smile. This happened, again and again,
with popular music, fashion and technology. His mind seemed to
possess only rough templates, or an awareness of the precursors of
things, rather than their present, living instances.
Growing
more troubled, he turned his attention back to the terminal. The
benches were arranged in rows that faced the terminal's massive
electronic display, a black rectangle affixed to the downward
curvature of the ceiling. Some of the destinations were immediately
familiar to him, evoking second-hand memories of famous landmarks and
national stereotypes. Others, he was certain, he had never
encountered before, and their names affected him like pieces of music
or passages of recondite poetry.
At the
bottom centre of the display, a smaller screen was tuned to what he
assumed was a news channel. This news channel, however, was subject
to an instantly notable and deeply alienating peculiarly: there were
no people in it. It alternated between long, static shots of a
studio in which two empty chairs regarded the viewer portentously,
and wide, rapidly cutting shots of urban locations equally devoid of
human presence. When the news programme broke for commercials, he
was initially relived to find that these, at least, contained people.
However, just as the news reportage lacked its crucial human
element, the advertisements were rendered stark by the absence of the
objects which were their chief subject. The beaming actors mimed the
various pleasures and utilities of absent, notional consumer
products, producing an effect which he found almost as forlorn as the
empty spaces of the news programme.
Turning
back to the people milling about beneath the display, he began to
notice other things. There were, as far as he could see, no children
in the terminal. He estimated that the average age was somewhere
between forty and sixty. He saw one teenager, and some who were in
their twenties, but they were outliers. Their clothing had the same
indefinite quality which characterized his memories. Most of it was
impossible to pin down to any specific decade. Where the clothing
did evoke a particular period, it did so in an unconvincing fashion,
like a much later recreation for a television show or magazine
spread. Finding nothing in the scene to place the terminal in either
time or space, he resolved that he had to speak to somebody.
Standing
up, he found himself initially dizzy and nauseous. The use of his
body felt peculiar, as though his mind floated in a jittery, pliant
suit of rubber. After a few steps, however, his body gradually
regained its sense of solidity and continuity. The queues to the
check-in desks were far too long, so he decided to accost the first
person that crossed his path. This turned out to be a women whom he
guessed to be in her mid-forties. She had the general appearance of
an academic or solicitor: a small, stoutish figure, short brown hair
and a kindly bespectacled face.
'Excuse
me,' he said, 'please, pardon me, do you speak English?' She paused.
'Yes,
yes I do.' A French accent, he thought.
'This
will seem like a really strange question. Could you tell me the name
of this airport?' She smiled indulgently: 'This is the
Intermundia Airport. Or one of them, at any rate.' She was
beginning to move away again.
'But,
I'm sorry, I really don't know where I am. That name doesn't mean
anything to me. What country are we in?' She touched his shoulder
gently.
'We
aren't in any country, really. Look. I can tell that you are new.
All this is very....disorientating and overwhelming at first. But
it's okay, you will get used to it. You need to relax, take a deep
breath. I assume that you haven't seen your case officer yet?'
'My
what?', he enquired, becoming impatient despite himself.
'Your
case officer. Have you had a session with your case officer yet?'
He could only shake his head. 'Well, you'll be called very soon, to
have a meeting with them. They will explain everything to you.
Really, it's okay, they'll explain everything.' Her owlish face was
beginning to drift back into the crowd. He looked at her
imploringly. She patted his shoulder again. 'I can't help you now.
But don't worry. Just
wait for the meeting. Things will be clearer.' She turned, and
walked away.
It was
becoming increasingly difficult to stave off his mounting anxiety.
He was troubled now by two things. First of all, he was suffering
from extreme amnesia. Perhaps worse still, however, his memory was
still sufficient to emphasize that his current situation was utterly
bizarre and even sinister. Was he dreaming? Though the most
desirable solution, he ruled this out almost instantly. He had no
doubt that his perceptions were veridical – had he been dreaming,
his awareness of the wrongness of everything would have nudged him to
wakefulness long ago. Was he going mad? Again, though this
might have been an almost reassuring explanation, it seemed
untenable. His reasoning felt completely lucid and clear-sighted.
What troubled him more than any temporary foible or malfunction of
his brain was the conviction that everything around him was real.
His amnesia, and the unnerving oddities of the airport terminal, were
a related phenomenon.
Was
he a political prisoner of some kind? The
woman's reference to a case officer suggested that he had fallen
under the jurisdiction of some bureaucracy or other. He couldn't
persuade himself, however, that the situation was merely political.
The airport's unnerving air of insularity and timelessness suggested
an order that existed aloof from politics, operating in a place
untouched by the world's fluctuating values and fortunes. His
suspicion was that something had been done to his mind to render it
as neutral and indistinct as the airport itself.
He turned to make his way back to the bench and discovered that the
precise location where he had been sleeping was now occupied by an
elderly woman. She too was curled up asleep, her face obscured by
wan, diaphanous hands clenched as though in prayer. He had to get
out of the terminal, and far away and fast. To the right of the
benches, through the milling crowds, he saw a row of automatic exit
doors bathed in sunlight gleam. He ambled towards them, trying not
to let his pace betray his urgency.
Outside in the glare, he found only a vaster sense of confinement.
The airport was marooned in an aesthetically spartan landscape of
transport hubs, served by a wide, teaming motorway. People were
disembarking from taxies and busies at a ramp, and again he noted
that none of them carried luggage. Squinting airport staff wheeled
empty luggage trolleys along the concourse, imparting a peculiar
sense of theatre or ritual. Across the motorway, accessible by an
overpass, there was a long, five-story concrete structure, composed
of a lattice of narrow conservatory balconies. Elevated above the
roof, large unlit neon letters identified the building as the “I N
T E R M U N D I A O V E R N I G H T.” The conservatory rooms
contained identical furnishing: a two-seater couch and wicker-table
facing the glass, and a bureau with a seat facing the wall. A
painting hung over the bureaus. Although he couldn't make out the
details, it was clearly the same study in each room.
Even from that distance, through the gasoline haze of the motorway,
everything in the little conservatories seemed faded, decrepit and
somehow mortally dispiriting. Though he had no precise memory of any
other, he felt certain that the Intermundia Overnight was among the
least welcoming of all hostelries. Many of the conservatories were
occupied. The distribution of those who sat facing the glass, and
those with their backs turned at the bureaus, formed an eerie binary
code. He felt as though the people seated at the wicker-tables
watched him with a kind of unwavering intensity, like individuals who
have been brutalized by a regime of boredom to the point of
cultivating cerebral, highly specialized homicidal tendencies.
Beyond the Overnight, there was a vast parking lot, and after that
what appeared to be an exact facsimile of the terminal he had just
existed. The harsh concrete terrain of motorway, overpasses and
expansive parking lots stretched as far as his eyes could register.
Trying to escape on foot was pointless.
Up to that point, a kind of premonitory anxiety had kept his
attention focused on the surrounding buildings. Now he looked fully
into the blue sky, and his brain reeled. The pulsating quality he
had earlier noted was a result of the exhaust fumes of a staggering
volume of airplanes. The sky was full of them: the nearer ones like
flocks of birds, and those further off like swarms of locusts. Their
flight paths seemed to extend indefinitely into the horizon, becoming
at the limits of visibility like tiny evening stars. It was a
beautiful and terrifying spectacle, a dance of metal fuselages
becoming liquid and molten in the sunlight, rising like scattered
motes against the crisp, boundless blue.
Continued shortly.